I’ve just started blogging about my own manic break and hospitalization. It’s about recovery and treatment, but more importantly about discovery of a new post-religion faith where there is no hell, no original sin, you are God, and heaven on earth is real, radiant and right around the corner. A wild and triumphant ride. http://graduatingfromgod.blogspot.com/
I pray you'll realize your mistake and find your way back into the arms of the Divine Physician. Until then, I'll add you to my prayers. By the Way, there is no Graduating from God -- He remains faithful even when we do not.